Danny , that first picture , is that from" Paradise Lost" the orange book ? That was my first picture book too. I always tried to speed through those pictures.
troubled mind
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What effect did armaggeddon/possible persecution have on your mental state?
by jambon1 ini was`nt brought up in the `truth`.
i have recently left and am amazingly happy.. one thing that got to me was my mental state of mind which became extreemly negative about the future.. i worried very much about non jw relatives (good people) dying at armaggeddon.
also reading the endless accounts of bros/sis being brutally tortured/raped etc really disturbed me.
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What effect did armaggeddon/possible persecution have on your mental state?
by jambon1 ini was`nt brought up in the `truth`.
i have recently left and am amazingly happy.. one thing that got to me was my mental state of mind which became extreemly negative about the future.. i worried very much about non jw relatives (good people) dying at armaggeddon.
also reading the endless accounts of bros/sis being brutally tortured/raped etc really disturbed me.
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This is a serious issue to me .I was raised a JW, and as a young child I was constantly warned Armageddon was right around the corner. Do you even have a clue what it does to a childs psyche to be told " you'll never have to worry about going to kindergarten,Armageddon will be here by then." All the while being taught about the persecution witnesses experienced during WWII , graphic stories of torture. As a young child my mother told us of the horrors that occured in Malawai.....why would anyone expose young children to such terrifying information? Because Witnesses believed they were preparing their children for the Great Tribulation . I was repeatedly told how my unbelieving grandparents and Father would probably turn on my mother some day ,and how I should remain loyal to God no matter what. We were trained to think how we could hide literature if it became banned ect.. I understand my Mom's fears because she had a German friend that actually had gone through terrible times in Germany , but her fears were unreasonably transposed upon innocent children. As I got older I was told don't worry the end will be hear beore you are old enough for High School,and then no need to go to college the end has got to be close.....that was 26 years ago.. What effect does ,did all that have ....can you say PROZAC / Xanax.......It makes you paranoid , anxious and untrusting. After years of searching and trying to figure out why I never felt like I belonged in my own life , I started figuring it out bit by bit over the past 15 years. One truth I came away with was I would never do that to my own kids! Even though we raised our kids as witnesses we were liberal and never pushed doomsday thinking upon them.We tried to teach them to prepare for their futures get an education , god bless them -THINK for themselves! They faced many pressures from the hardliners, but hopefully they are better adjusted to life than I was.Only now am I reaching the stage of my life were I can question everything else about this religion, it is an adventure , and a hell of alot of pain.
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be my valentine?
by lucifer inyep tomorrow's valentines day, and i don't have a valentine, as soon as i get home i will be calling my good friend to ask him to be mine lol, what about you guys, have any special plans or old memories of valentines day you'd like to share
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I saw the sweetest thing this morning ...this young middle school age boy on his way to school with an arm full of roses. He was slightly chunky , shy ,baby faced ...............with the most precious grin on his face. I hope whom ever receives those roses is as kind to him.
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Would someone play therapist or teach me, " How to keep your sanity 101"
by troubled mind inmy head feels like it is going to explode ,i've been gone a week for my sister's surgery and the stress is squashing me .....she is doing well though ,but why i'm i still so stressed.
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Lady Lee, Good perspective, thanks. I realize now what is happening ,and it's okay to take the time now to deal with the emotions. I have always been the type of person that feels everything very deeply ,but keeps it buried .It hasn't been a very healthy way to deal with things, but I'm learning as I go what works best.
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Would someone play therapist or teach me, " How to keep your sanity 101"
by troubled mind inmy head feels like it is going to explode ,i've been gone a week for my sister's surgery and the stress is squashing me .....she is doing well though ,but why i'm i still so stressed.
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Thanks for asking , yes my sister is making progress ,but because of other health problems she will be hospitalized a while. I too hold everything in until later , yesterday I had a melt down ,now I feel some better. During the whole ordeal I feel like I have to take charge and take care of everyone around me ( because I do ) so maybe it was time for me to deal since we're in a safe zone now. No one from my hall has called or asked about the family .That made a point with my husband , who still is half way a believer of jwdumb.
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How Would You Classify Your JW Family?
by minimus inare they liberal minded?
strict diehards?
nutty?
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Personally I've always been a slacker, with independant thoughts . Husband is a social follower, believes it is the truth, but that he just doesn't have what it takes to be perfect.Our children range from does not give a damn to very active. In-laws are die hard. Other relatives are closet liberals and opinionated snobs.
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Why can't you just move on?
by atypical inthat's what my wife said to me the night before last.
i was making an observation about the way my family and other jws in my life are constantly trying to get me to go to a meeting or read an awake, but they never want to sit down and address the questions i have raised to them.
she then asked me why i can't just move on.
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I wish it was that easy , just to move on. I feel stuck , even trapped . If my adult children were free of it all then it would be better. I have witness neighbors too . At least my mate is not pushing being active.
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Would someone play therapist or teach me, " How to keep your sanity 101"
by troubled mind inmy head feels like it is going to explode ,i've been gone a week for my sister's surgery and the stress is squashing me .....she is doing well though ,but why i'm i still so stressed.
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Where did everyone go ?? Anyone out there still want to talk before I leave for work?
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Would someone play therapist or teach me, " How to keep your sanity 101"
by troubled mind inmy head feels like it is going to explode ,i've been gone a week for my sister's surgery and the stress is squashing me .....she is doing well though ,but why i'm i still so stressed.
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Yeahhhhh !!!!! Party for me ....I fell so grown up now . WOW Sanity 101
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Would someone play therapist or teach me, " How to keep your sanity 101"
by troubled mind inmy head feels like it is going to explode ,i've been gone a week for my sister's surgery and the stress is squashing me .....she is doing well though ,but why i'm i still so stressed.
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Acadian , I think your right about the Post traumatic stress . It feels like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop . I guess because a couple of years ago we went through all this with my mom and the outcome was not so good. In fact the worst time of my life . In the back of my mind I keep preparing for the worst.